Better one handful with tranquillity
than two handfuls with toil
and chasing after the wind.
~Ecc. 4:6
As I was writing a friend this afternoon, I was struggling with the equilibrium that comes with having found peace after devastation. I was attempting to find the words to express the intense grief that still finds me, [...]
One Handed Living
One Year
I didn’t understand why it hurt so much today.
Sure, the day is significant. Its details forever etched within David and me.
Certainly, my emotions are strained.
Clearly, I feel the grief as evidenced by my stumbling; forgetting to charge Adriana’s batteries, neglecting to remember Lila’s diaper bag, spending money on clothes for a baby that isn’t [...]
Full, Circle
Full Circle.
I distinctly remembering my mother saying, “We’ve come full circle,” on the one year of my father’s passing on February 22, 1999.
Full Circle.
Full: Containing all that is normal or possible
cir·cle: A series or process that finishes at its starting point or continuously repeats itself; a cycle.
Full Circle.
At sixteen, I thought that was brilliant.
At [...]
Where Sadness Lives
She use to sit with me
accompany me to breakfast, lunch and dinner
Then, as the summer days roared hot and heavy
Sadness rose up, no longer satisfied with me
and yet,
it takes just a passing glance for Sadness to find me
again.
She slips back into my shoes, seeps into my skin,
I can almost feel her breath.
What scares me is this,
I [...]
Little Miss Holiday
Halloween is coming.
I know because the stores all say so. Every other aisle is filled with Halloween decor and goodies.
It makes me so sad.
Like seriously sad.
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Every year of my life for as long as I can remember, every holiday has been a celebration. And yes, every holiday. Growing up, I would come home from school [...]
and then…
they were a family of nine.
Redemption baby due Easter Sunday, 2009.
That makes me 9 weeks and 1 day pregnant today.
That leaves me approximately 30 weeks and 6 days to balance the weight of life and death. A heavy burden, no?
