I suppose it’s perfectly within reason for one to get reflective around one’s birthday.
But this year, I’m feeling particularily reflective, particularily intuitive.
I went so far as to visit my parents’ grave; a trip I’ve done only twice in the 20 months since my mother’s passing.
With my van full of children, I couldn’t help but wonder if this was to be their future too. Would my own daughters celebrate more birthdays without me than with me?
For the first time in my life, I feel old.
Not physically aged…just, perhaps, the equivalent of my life experiences.
Am I where I thought I’d be? Am I who I thought I’d be?
Do the answers even matter?
I believe we each have a calling in this life. I wonder if I’m living to my full potential. I question if I’ve done right by the gifts and talents my Heavenly Father has given me.
Every day I pray specifically for God to use my life for His Glory.
I pray this to be true.
Lately, I’ve felt the Holy Spirit within me…a pressing, ’still, small voice’ whispering to me.
God hasn’t yet revealed His message to me, but I feel it. I know it.
There have been specific times in my life when I just *knew* I was on the verge of something…I feel it now too.
Again, I pray, Lord, let me be a vessel; use me. Make me like you; use my life for your Glory. Amen.
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I can’t wait to hear what He has to say. Whatever it is, I know you’ll do great with it. You are such a strong and capable person, I doubt there is much of anything outside your grasp.
God is already using you in so many ways that you don’t even know about…