Lucy’s Verse

“Arise, shine; for your light is come, and the glory of the LORD is risen on you.”

~ Isaiah 60:1

Each of my girls has a verse that I consider ‘theirs.’ The verse that sustained me during pregnancy or simply gave me hope in those early days of motherhood.

Tuesday, God led me to this verse.

You might recall that ‘Lucy’ means ‘light.’

With vibrant Lucy’s birth imminent, I feel the usual rush of emotions and hormones; but present too, are the not so usual ones.

This pregnancy has been my most difficult— the fierce morning sickness that literally brought me to my knees, the worry and wait over early testing, the gestational diabetes that has been anything but traditional and easy, the bed rest from signs of early labor, the early release from work-doctor’s orders.

So different.

But maybe it should be. Has to be.

Lucy isn’t coming into a naive family.

Lucy is coming after the deepest of heartaches, the worst of pain.

Lucy will be born, and all the wonder and amazement that is a new creation will be hers; yet it belongs to each of us.

I have truly fought to be in this moment.

Right now, a few cities over, my dear mother in law fights the physical battle of a cancer that has spread and invaded her weary body. This woman of faith also fights the inner battle I know all too well; on March 4th we said good-bye to ‘Uncle Jimmy.’ My mother in law’s oldest child, my husband’s only sibling.

This morning in prayer and devotion, my heart ached for my mother in law. How strong, how faithful. I didn’t think I could have ever fought that fight.

But in my own way; I have, I am.

We conceived Lucy 7 months after Jakie’s death.

My body was certainly invaded.

I have had to push through and fight, prove LIFE is what I wanted.

I have had to ‘arise’ in every moment and I only pray that God will continue to reveal HIS GLORY through our pain and our comforts.

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