Oh sweet words on a page how I rejoice in you.
My eyes are numb and red.
My head is aching with the intensity that comes only after hours of sobbing.
My spirit is weary and heavy from fighting not just today’s battle, but every one before.
I look back on the last year of my life and see [...]
Love = Success; an update
Hearing = Success
I am livid.
Fighting mad.
I have a firm belief God designed every person in His image.
Even those who cannot hear, see, walk or speak.
It’s His image. His design.
Exactly how far do we go to “correct” his design?
We make walkers, we wear hearing aids, we have surgeries, we put on glasses…I think these things are good things. [...]
When will I learn
that GOD always provides?
I cannot count the endless hours I have spent in my adult life worrying over finances. It’s my go-to anxiety.
In an attempt to research some deeper meaning behind my terrorizing nightmares (I’ll save that for another day), I came across the suggestion that our biggest anxieties and stressors often present themselves in [...]
Roots + Wings = Raising a Child
If you ever really want to see me angry, and I’m talking crazy angry, then hold your child back.
I cannot, for the life of me, wrap my brain around the idea of holding my child back from life. Maybe it’s because my own children have witnessed great depths and sorrows, maybe it’s because I’m anxious, [...]
Little Miss Holiday
Halloween is coming.
I know because the stores all say so. Every other aisle is filled with Halloween decor and goodies.
It makes me so sad.
Like seriously sad.
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Every year of my life for as long as I can remember, every holiday has been a celebration. And yes, every holiday. Growing up, I would come home from school [...]
So this is where I am
words
where are you
i’ve got something to say
but I cannot find the words
think, Katie, think
come on words, you know you want out
the other night I had an anxiety attack.
for hours.
David sat and talked to me.
just talked.
eventually, in the darkness
my heart rhythm slowed,
my breathes were no longer forced.
BUT WHY.
I wouldn’t say I’m reverting to my post Jakie [...]
and then…
they were a family of nine.
Redemption baby due Easter Sunday, 2009.
That makes me 9 weeks and 1 day pregnant today.
That leaves me approximately 30 weeks and 6 days to balance the weight of life and death. A heavy burden, no?
Life Lists
While reading this month’s issue of Self magazine, shout out to Kyla, who rocked it out in an article this month (check her out on pg. 182), I came across an interesting article regarding “life lists.”
The article came with a handy dandy space for list making and it gave me pause to consider…
Every day I [...]
