The anxiety of this day has been building for nearly a month. Every night, a fresh burst of tears would fall as Avery professed her worries. She just didn’t want me to leave her.
We’ve read books, watched videos, toured classrooms and so much more, all in anticipation of this day.
Today, my Avery Gracie started Kindergarten.
and [...]
So, I think this might possibly be the longest I’ve ever gone without purging my thoughts and such on the screen before me.
Yesterday marked 8 months since Jakie died. Guess how many people remembered? One.
It’s not so much that I need people to remember the date, it’s more I need to remember it. Because it [...]
It’s very easy to let the old ways consume you. To slip back into the familiar arms of grief, relax into her tight embrace and simply never let go.
Only, Grief’s embrace won’t heal you, it won’t bring you closer to where you going…it’s merely a place to stop, catch your breath, linger in your loss. [...]
In the days and weeks following Avery’s birth, I remember being astounded to see this person who came from my being, but wasn’t me. It was one of the most profound realizations of my life, to know you could create a child, carry her in your womb, and yet have no control over who she [...]
It’s been 7+months since I last held Jakie in my arms, and yet, today, I had the strongest urge to hold him.
It was overwhelming.
Powerful.
Maternal.
And it made me weep as I struggled to keep driving. My eyes were burning from the tears, somehow, my body remembered exactly what it felt like to hold him and I [...]
