For the longest time after Jakie died, all i could was proclaim my best. All I wanted was to affirm how much I was actively “trying” to survive.
I let my every thought, my every action become an exhibit in a self inflicted trial of survival.
As is frequently the case with me, I was on a [...]
Arise
Message to My Son
Pull it together.
You’ve got to do this. Self control doesn’t come naturally, you have to make an effort. Center yourself. Quiet the words that push to escape you. Find somewhere else to put the anger child, or it will follow you everywhere you go.
It will become you Taylor, if you don’t put it to rest.
Pull [...]
So I Had a Bad Day
Do you realize what this means?
A bad day.
That means, somewhere in the last few days, I had enough okay days to now be able to recognize a “bad” day.
This is profound people. Truly, profound.
I know I’ve been quiet lately, deep in thought, prayer and change.
My life is changing. I’m starting to see glimpses of a [...]
meandering
Today, I gathered the great big stack of thoughts and prayers that arrived in the weeks surrounding and following Jakie’s death.
I’ve moved the stack around. From the mailbox, to the counter, to a basket, to a drawer…I couldn’t bring myself to read back through the emotions, it’s enough just to live them each and every [...]
Missing Words
For me, losing my ability to communicate my emotions is a red flag.
I know I’m headed nowhere good if I cannot find the words to hault my ever racing mind.
I’ve been in bad places before, but right now, I’m certain hell couldn’t be any worse than where my heart is.
Monday was my birthday. A young adult [...]
An Unfortunate Series of Events
Some days, I wonder if my life isn’t but a string of islands, with pain circling in the waters.
I can no more pretend all is right with me than I can accurately count the stars in the sky.
Karen posted this recently and I could not have read it at a better time,
Do not be daunted by [...]
