I can’t remember which ridiculously unenlightening film the above phrase came from, but I do know that it’s been playing in my mind incessantly since making the decision on Thursday to take the summer off from work.
The scene shows two boys/men attempting to place a drive thru food order, only to have the attendant mercilessly [...]
And then?
What I Give
I’ll Give
yesterday I lived for me
and I was so alone as I could be
then I saw You and how You give Yourself away
and I want to live for You today
I’ll give; I’ll hold nothing
I’ll give; I’ll hold nothing
I’ll give and I’ll hold nothing back
my love is a lot like [...]
Six
Today, someone did something so small for me that meant so much more than they’ll ever know.
As is often the case, a stranger commented on how “full” my hands were while at the hairdresser today with the three youngest girls. I couldn’t help but feel my heart burst with pride when my hairdresser replied, [...]
“Write a New Page”
How can you not welcome such a clear invitation?
There are so many things in this world I wish to write, and a new page is just one of them.
I wish I could write that I am,
-a stay at home mom
-pregnant
-the mother to six living children
-the daughter of living parents
-financial stable
-emotionally consistent
However, I am NONE of [...]
Wow.
So, I did it.
As much as I’d like to say I don’t care, I do.
It hurts enough in real life to have people avoid me, I don’t need it virtually too.
So here I am. Just my thoughts and friends…no need to soften my feelings or can my emotions. I am embarrassed that I let it [...]
Not Just Another Story
I am real.
I am hesitant.
I am beaten down.
Sometimes you’ve got to let everything go… purge yourself.
If you are unhappy with anything…whatever is bringing you down, get rid of it.
Because you’ll find that when you’re free, your true creativity,
your true self comes out.
~Tina Turner
I suppose it’s time to do [...]
Just Say It Already
I have written, deleted, and rewritten this post no less than six times.
I have something to say and I simply cannot say it. I know, rare for me right?
It’s not fair.
It’s not okay.
It’s even stupid.
I should not have to grieve the way society wants me to grieve. I should not have to attend meetings, read [...]
Five Months
Who am I now, now that time has past and the initial fog has given way to a forecast equally mixed with storms and sunshine?
I am lonely.
It’s hard to explain the kind of loneliness that can find me, even while teaching a classroom full of four year olds or while tending the needs of my [...]
Worry, Wait, Repeat
This is one cycle I simply must break.
It was one roaring weekend for my emotions. What started with a very faint second line on a pregnancy test and ended with a fully naked Lulu in the middle of a department store.
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Unfortunately, the faint positive that felt almost dreamlike remained just that-a dream. I am certain [...]
